A song from the Goddess

This song reminds me of the Goddess every time I here it

I'll stand by you

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothin' you confess, could make me love you less

I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So, if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/pretenders-lyrics/i_ll-stand-by-you-lyrics.html)
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You're feelin' all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you

I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Yeah

Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
No, no, no, no, no
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you

My Dark Night of the Soul

For those that do not know me personaly I suffer from Depression. This is nothing new to me. I have founds ways to cope and it is not much of an issue for to long. Well this pass week I have had a experience that was beyond depression. I was lost in a Dark Night of the Soul.

The Dark Night of the Soul is a time in you life where you give up all hope. Some say that this dark time is cause due to a lack of a connection to the Divine. While others state that is is a lesson in spritual evloution.  I belive it might be a bit of both.

I just went through a Dark Night of the Soul and it was not fun. I saw nothing. wanted nothing needed nothing. I was lost in the dark with no light. When my depression hits I usualy find the light and pull my self out of it. This was different. All of my fears and insecurites came at in a mad rage. Thought of Sucide were real I even looked up ways to do it and what happen if fail. I could not see the light of the Goddess. or the love of my friends. All there was hurt and pain. I did not care if i ate or bathed. I stayed in my room locked in my head of darkness. I  relived some of the most scaring emontional times in my life.Who the hell want to relive there painful past. I was lost I was enjoying the feel of a cold blade upon my skin. I could not ask for help I could not take what was there. I felt nothing but sadness and anger. I refused the love of the people around me. I was leaving the earth and all this pain. I started by removing myself from social networking. Now I am not online or answering my phone for anybod. People are trying to give me love and support; but I wanted to feel the pain and the saddness. I wanted the darkness.

Well I was lost in the dark pain. My coven members are having dreams of me. I also was trying to block them out of my aura. I guess that by trying to do this it has a reverse effect and created more feed of info. I was realy lost. My Priest and his partner came by to cheek on me ect. I had a chat with him which i did not listen with my ears. throught out the chat I saw the look on my Priests' partners face and it was turly horibale. After they left I of coruse went back to bed I been in bed for the past 4 days. I was trying to go to sleep and I keep seening that face and hering my Priests' words  "to help others with their pain you must know pain." . Well latter that day I finaly got out of bed. Some times when you are lost in the dark and you can not see the light is because you are not looing what is behind you. It took my Priest to come over and slap me with  light before I learned this

Joys of a Coven

As a Sottary Witch you start to feel alone. When the Full Moon comes around and you find that you are the only in the Circle. When that spell you been working on finaly came to manifestion and you want to share with others. I know I have been there I have been working witchcraft alone since i started. There are many joys to working alone do not take me wrong. Like not having to amend the ritual to fit the need of others. If you mess up it is no one falt and no one else can get caught in the back fire form a spell gone wrong. ect.

 I have been working with a coven for the past year. This Coven is Great. I met other people to share my magick with. I got to learn new forms of magick; like the ritual of the lesser bansishing pentacle. I never want to learn it becaise it Christian connection. Turns out I was missing out in one the best bansishing ritual ever.

I got to learn the joy sharing in a feast in the name of the gods.  Join hands and forming the Circle. Feeling the power of the Gods move through us and connect each and ever one of us. Dancing around the fire or leaping the fire if you are brave. The Wine share in good toast and blessing all around. The stories told of each members magical past last on for hours. Each member has a speical gift that they bring to the circle. Like the Voodoo guy and then there the Magician the Kitchen Witch a Wiccan The Guardain. ect. Each one is differnet but we are all the same A child of Magick.


Each memeber of the Coven plays a imporant part wheather it is know or not. Some lessons are learned the hard way and ties have to be cut; but there were lessons learned in those sad time to be taught let us learn them well. Working together we create maricals we even cure cancer once. We have created love and became a family. Each one of us has things to teach and skills to offer to help make our life much easier. By the Mystic Alchemy of the Goddess does a Coven like this one exist. So may differnt oppions  so many  tradtions and paths working together as one

I have gain many new friends and a whole new family that joys of working with a coven is great for me at least I still work as a solitary witch but I am so glad that the Goddess led me to  my Coven.

Surfing the Internet or Scrying

Scrying is the art of using a reflective surface to see in the to astral world to get info. So I been thinking about the Internet and how it is like Scrying. We sit in front of a screen and make request for info. With the the right commands the info is presented on the screen.  Compared to Scrying where you sit in front of a mirror or bowl of water connecting to the astral and with the right commands the info that you are seeking is in printed on to the reflective surface of the mirror or water. Sound the same to me. So when I turn on my laptop in search of info I am scrying  just with the Internet .

so you want to be a witch eh?

12 Dec 2007

So you want to be a Witch eh?

So, You Wanna Be A Witch, Eh?

Well sit right here, by my side

and I'll tell you the secrets of the tide ...

And just get comfy, honey child,

while I speak of nature, free and wild.

But you don't have a cloak, or a pointed hat?

Bah! and Piffle! ... What's with that?

The Witch is worn within the soul,

not donned for occasions, or kept in a bowl.

When you think of Witches, you tremble at magick?

Oh, silly girl, that is indeed tragic!

Well take a deep breath, and hold tight to my hand,

and together we'll dream to the edge of the land ..

where forest and sky kiss the edge of the waters.

Where spirits as we claim a kinship with daughters

of elements born before words are remembered,

where feelings .. and thoughts .. are no longer hindered.

Tis the everyday things that witches are aware of.

The sun and the moon and the wee tiny cherub,

who tugs at our heart strings and drives us to madness,

yet gives us such joy, and fills us with gladness

A soft gentle rain, nudging buds to full flower.

Hurricane! Twister! .. Such terrible power.

Candles, and heart fire, warming and scented

Forests ablaze, volcanic stacks vented!

A mantle of snow, both preserves and gives pleasure.

Avalanche! Iceberg! .. So full of treasure

The warmth of the Sun bringing life we so cherish

Bleak desert landscape. Burnt tundra, we perish

Now open your eyes and look closely at me

You came here so fearful, now what do you see?

A kindly old woman? An evil old hag?

A cloak of maturity? A dirty old rag?

Both sides of the coin, Light and Dark we encompass

Good and Evil abide, and still walk among us.

So be very sure, that a Witch you will be

for we own it all .. you and me .. you and me.

© 1997 .. Jacci Sutton aka Paniteowl

the witch alone

12 Dec 2007

The witch alone

The Witch Alone
(by Scott Cunningham)

Beyond the town, beneath the moon
Beside the standing stone
There lives a woman, fair of faith
We call the witch alone

She sings to sun and moon and stars
And gathers herbs and weeds
With which she fashions ancient charms
And other magic deeds

She worships not at altars built
By hands of mortal men
But in the misty glade
Beyond the farthest glen

What need has she of flashing swords
Of crystals glowing bright
Of censors and of colored cords
That grace the wiccan rite?
Her tools are fashioned from the earth
And wind and fire and rain
Her rites are dances wild and free
That call the gods amain

When spring and summer pass to fall
And twilight fills her eyes
She'll lie upon the browning grass
And smile as she dies

For though she leaves her mortal shell
Of flesh and blood and bone
She knows she does not die but lives
On, as the witch alone....

harmony at work spell

20 Dec 2007

Harmony at Work Spell

Well one of my roommates came to me and aksed me to do a spell for him. See he was have some problems getting along with his other coworkers. He asked me to do work a spell so they can get along. well this is what I cam up with. Please feel free to use it and leave any comment about how you used it.

Harmony at Work Spell
take an empty container like an old pill bottle
blend together Lavender Rose St. Johnwort Thyme Sandlewood Sage Sugar and some amethyst chips.
I mixed this up with my wand in my calurdon while chant this spell
work in harmony O human machine You are there for a higher need By my spell you all work as one Unitll the job is done By the power if the unverise and me So mote it be
I put the herbal blend into the old pill jar and labled it and cave it my friend to put in his locker